i honestly feel really happy right now, so blessed. but at the same time i feel sad. i feel like i’ve been on an emotional rollercoaster lately. honestly, this past month has been really tough for me. i’ve dealt with feelings that i’ve never dealt with, that i thought i’d never deal with. and i’m finally doing okay. for the moment, that is. i’m afraid those feelings will come back and i won’t know how to deal with it. i know how i SHOULD deal with them: take them to God first. but whenever it’s happening, my mind goes blank. i cannot think. and when i do think, it’s always the wrong thing. thats one thing i do know.
God has saved me, he has shown me how precious life is, how much it means to me, how many people love me / care about me, that people need me. he has shown me that i need Him through the happy times and the painful times. when i’m about to give up, thats when i need Him most. and i KNOW that.
This life means something, and i need to live it for Him.
‘is it gunna be okay?’ ‘are bad things gunna happen to me?’ the questions you dont have answers to, the things you’re crazy anxious about, the things you have great anxiety about. you cant sleep because these things keep you up at night. unanswered questions that continually run through your mind. matthew 6:25. dont worry. seek Him first, He will take care of you. you carry that weight around until its going to KILL you. maybe you considered suicide, but you can’t tell anyone because maybe they’d think you’re weird. so you carry that weight around. God allows us to go through these tough times, times where we don’t even think we can handle life anymore so that we can just do ‘okay, i’ll give it to you God.’ when we worry, when we’re anxious, we’re truly saying ‘God i dont trust that you’ll work this out for good, so i’ll work it out myself.’ Paul’s solution to anxiety: PRAY. go to God with your worries, go to God with your anxiety. you pray about things we dont even care about, when inside you’re DYING. as your praying, these things things flood your mind. you go to God messy, you fall on your face and go ‘God i’m a mess and i need your help.’ as the things come into your mind, the things that keep you up at night, these are the things you pray to God about. bring those things to God. you bring your anxieties to Him. God listens. How do we know he cares? the cross.
THIS SERMON CHANGED MY LIFE.