The World Is Not A Wish-Granting Factory

let me explain: that first evening session we had, it changed my life. yes i have grown up in a Christian school, home, and church. but for a while before, i had been doubting God’s love for me. i really had been, and it makes me so sad that i even doubted Him at all. that night, for the FIRST time, i truly surrendered to him. things that i have been holding onto for such a long time. i felt the burden be lifted off my shoulders. he filled me with so much comfort that night. that night, when i stood in front of everyone, i re-dedicated my life to God. that’s what happened, i had been doubtful and hardhearted. but He has softened my heart and humbled me. i re-invited Him into my heart and my life. and i am so happy.

the testimonies that people shared at the retreat broke my heart.

i feel so utterly blessed.

wednesday night, i told my boyfriend that i dont believe that i DESERVE God’s love. he shared with me this verse: 1 John 4:19 “we love because he first loved us.”

wednesday night, i surrendered everything to God.

wednesday night, He revealed himself to me, like i have been praying for, for so long.

wednesday night, i took a step of faith and reinvited God into my life.

wednesday night, i began to understand the depth of God’s love for me.

wednesday night, i cried my heart out.

wednesday night, i re-dedicated my life to God.

wednesday night, i did something i would never do: stand in front of my senior class, crying my eyes out, returning to God.

wednesday night, CHANGED MY LIFE.

changed my life, in the hugest way possible <333333

i am oh SO blessed, and i feel unstoppable.

IF GRACE IS AN OCEAN, WE’RE ALL SINKING.

GOD is so good <3

we laugh, talk, smile, scrabble, phase 10, watch movies, hug, hold hands, kiss, everything that is good(:

the past three days have completely changed my life. i have returned to Jesus Christ, my Lord & Savior. i am SO happy right now. i have so many emotions running through me right now. i am so happy that i have finally surrendered everything to Him. but at the same time, i am so sad that it took me so long to do that. this retreat has taught me so many things, and i am so completely thankful for everything that happened there. I am so thankful for my boyfriend, for helping to show me how much God loves me. and for him taking his time to teach me things from the Bible. meant so much to me<3. also, i am so thankful for my friends; how supportive they are. i realized how much people care about me, which i didnt think before this experience.

our first night there, at our evening session, i felt SO overwhelmed. i didnt even know what to think. all i know is that my doubts are gone. God has saved me, he is SO amazing. its ridiculous.

i dont think i have cried so much before, i feel like all my burdens are gone. its like God just picked them up off my shoulders & threw them away.

I feel so vulnerable. i need prayer.

For the first time, the songs we sang really really HIT ME. they made me cry, made me smile. i have just a whole new outlook on the love that God has for me.

i dont know what else to say right now, there’s just too much. ha(:

it was amazing, best days of my life. <3

CANT WAIT FOR THIS!(:

packing for the retreat. im so excited for this thing!

i packed less stuff, THANKYOUVERYMUCHFORYOURCRITICISM.

we talk<3, listen, laugh<33, smile :), take pictures, hug :), kiss<33333333, cook, eat, watch say yes to the dress :))), <33333333333333333333333333333 

up(:

talked, chatted, laughed, smiled, took pictures, ate food, etc. we just enjoyed each others company(:<33 he’s amazing(:

give me peace, please let me know that everything is okay.

these are the things i LOVE about him(:

• the fact that he’s my boyfriend / love / future husband.
• his smile.
• his laugh.
• his accents(:
• the fact that he is my bestfriend.
• he is a wonderful listener(:
• he spoils me.
• he makes me laugh ALL the time, and makes me smile even more<33
• he is just so cute(:
• handsomest boy in the whole world!<333
• he knows me the BEST out of everyone.
• the way he loses everything :P<3
• he doesnt mind when i cry.
• he wipes my tears away.
• his kisses(: and his hugs :D
• how he holds my hand all the time<33
• his eyes(:
• his hair.
• the way he lets me wear his clothes, and steal his socks(:
• the promise ring he got me / what he promised<3
• his love for God.
• his passion, ambition, and drive.
• the way he loves me(:

1. he is my BESTfriend. and he is only MINE, forever.

2. he makes the cutest faces, and makes me laugh(:

3. he makes my smile like nobody else can, and he is the love of my life.

4. he is the love of my life and future husband<333333

5. he does the cutest accents((((: my favorite!(:<333

oh, and his favorite animal is a monkey(: